Too Giddy to NOT Give an Update

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I just couldn’t help myself and wait for a blog post for next week.  I got on the scale this morning and….I’m down 2 more lbs!  WOOHOOO  ONLY 2 MORE TO GO….And then I’ll be zooming over the water on jet skis in Lake Livingston with my family to celebrate (see my last blog post for goal).  CAN NOT WAIT!  I think I’ll surpass my goal by then though. haha  Even better!

This week, I worked out twice a day for 3 days.  And worked out Mon-Thursday, taking tonight off and working out early in the morning (plus a bonus of going with my hubs, best friend and her hubs to shoot a few golf balls at a really cool driving range here called Top Golf in the morn) and then will take Sunday off as well.  It felt a little weird waking up this morning and not rushing out the door at dark to head to the gym to swim. haha  But I’ll be right back at that Monday AM.  I’m really enjoying it!

And I started pushing myself to run a full mile without stopping this week, twice.  There’s a half marathon relay here in October or November (I forget) that I would love to be able to run with a friend.  She’d do the 6 miles and I’d do the 6 miles and we both still get the medal.  Sounds pretty awesome to me. haha  So my goal is to run the whole 6 miles.  My best friend who is an avid runner (you can read her blog at http://www.thefastfitrunner.com/ ) , even at 9 months pregnant… is still running milessssss, gave me a really good goal, to up my distance by 0.3 each week and I should be at the 6 miles by the race.  That sounds much more do-able. haha

I couldn’t help myself with this picture….can someone please make this for me! hahaha

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Well, I hope everyone has a great weekend.  See y’all back here next week sometime.

Celebrating Every “Little” Step

ImageWell…I did it!  2 days in a row too!  I got up yesterday and this morning and went and swam 500 meters.  May not be alot to some, but it’s alot to me, since I haven’t freestyle swam in a year and a half.  My goal is to start swimming every morning, Mon-Thurs, and still do my normal workouts in the evening (5 days a week).  Last night I had a hard time sleeping though.  I got home about 9 pm, ate dinner and the Heat/Spurs Finals game #6 was on.  Some of you know that I’m a newly upcoming fan of basketball.  I love Miami Heat.  GO HEAT!  I think they have alot of great players.  I love my very own home team too though, Houston Rockets.  We may have the lowest paid team in the league, but I still think we have great guys…some with alot of heart and passion in the game.  Anyways, my sleep kept getting disrupted because the game was on and I knew and wanted to watch it. haha  I finally feel asleep close to 11:45 p.m. (and I had laid down at 10).  Hoping to figure out my nightly routine a little bit better so that I can go to bed earlier.  I love a good 8 hour sleep.

Here I am in my very first Speedo.  Yes, I added the skirt…I’m not that comfortable with my body yet.  I of course look at this picture and criticize it, but I hope to put a similar one up to it one day and see the difference.  This picture was taken a few weeks ago.  I am already thinking of how I can sell it when I drop some more lbs 🙂

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And last night, I felt the need to get on a treadmill and see how long I could run.  I have never gotten the running thing done…not even when I did my 2 Half Marathons and the 2 triathlons.  But last night, I ran A WHOLE MILE without stopping.  Woohoo, GO ME!  I just feel that as I’m losing the pounds, that it’s getting easier on my body to run.  In the past, it felt like dead weight trying to run.  However, I do need to get out on the road and try and run a whole mile because that’ll be more of a challenge.  But I ran my whole mile in less than 15 minutes (haha, I felt like I was going way faster than a 15 min mile) and then I walked briskly with an incline for the other 30 minutes.  Nick asked how my workout was, and I said “GREAT!”. haha  I don’t think I’ve ever said that to a workout before.  I really did enjoy it and look forward to getting back to my efforts of running.  I’m really wanting to do a relay for a half marathon in October or November, so that would be about 6 miles.  I’d LOVE to be able to run the whole thing.  We’ll see 🙂

Does anyone have any good ideas for what to do with your wet stuff (swim suit and towel) after you swim in the morning and need to head straight to work?  Our gym doesn’t have a spinner to dry them 😦  So I need a good idea.  This morning, I put my wet towel on the back seat (leather) and hung the swim suit up so that it was dangling over the towel.  But I really don’t even want the wet towel on my seat.  Hopefully I’ll figure it out soon.

I have to say this….I can see how some athletic people who are very good at what they do and very strong headed can get totally annoyed with my blogs.  They probably see my “little” accomplishments and think I don’t deserve credit yet, but I want you all to know that I continue to praise myself for the “little” steps I’m taking to get fit.  Each time I make it to the gym, each time I go for a walk, a bike ride, a swim, etc….I’m making a step and each of those steps are mentally challenging for me. Mentally, it is getting easier and I will celebrate that too, because one of my biggest critics is my mind.  So I just had to tell y’all that, in case anyone thinks I shouldn’t be celebrating each “little” step.  I totally disagree..I should celebrate 🙂  And speaking of celebrating…my aunt thought it was a great idea to have me over to ride jet skis when I have gotten to the 20 mark.  I gave myself a goal of losing 4 more lbs by Saturday July 6.  I can totally do it.  Wish me luck!

Craving Cupcakes? NO…EXERCISE!

I don’t think I’ve ever CRAVED exercise before as much as I am this morning.  This past week was hard.  On top of having Nick’s family in for his uncle’s death (yes, unfortunately he passed away Thursday), I also had work stress.  I worked an extra 3 1/2 hours last week.  Am I the only one who’s not use to that?  Even if I work an extra 30 minutes, I feel it.  It’s just not worth it to me.  My time OUT of the office is much more valuable to me.

So, needless to say, I bombed last week with all the stresses of work and having guests in town and events happen that we just couldn’t help.  I only worked out twice!  I’m not totally beating myself up about it, but I am wishing I had more time last week.  However, because of the circumstances, I know that there was nothing I could do about it and am just ready to get back on the horse this week.

Haha, I couldn’t resist this.  I was looking for something good to go with this post and I came across this.  Yes…while this is so true and making excuses to exercise is not a part of my life anymore (Never thought I’d say that), when there is no energy to exercise because you just worked 10-12 hour days and you have family in that need you because of a death in the family…this had to be put on the back burner.  HOWEVER, I am SO HAPPY to say I don’t make excuses on an everyday basis anymore.  WOW…I seriously never thought I’d get to this point.

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On another note, I’ve been curious to hear everytime I see someone that I haven’t seen in a while, if they noticed any weight loss on me yet.  I haven’t lost so much that I’m unrecognizable yet, but I am so happy to say that I am ONLY FOUR POUNDS AWAY FROM 20 lbs LOST.  Woohoo.  I am so close. When I get to 20…I am going to celebrate!  Don’t know how because I use to celebrate with margaritas and now that those are the enemy drink of me, I’m not sure how I’ll celebrate.  Maybe I’ll talk my Aunt and her boyfriend into letting me come ride their jet skis. haha  I’ll figure something out.  Maybe I’ll plan a day at the beach.  Much more healthy than drinking, right?! haha  So I’ve gotten some compliments in person, but not everyone comments.  However, we went out with some friends Saturday night and I think I just took a really good picture because man oh man, I got lots of comments on my FB about how great I look.  My mom even called me sexy. haha  I haven’t felt “sexy” in a while, but I am starting to want to sing JT’s song again..”I’m bringing sexy back, what…” hahaah  Startin to feel pretty again.  It is nice, but I’m not totally at a point where I’m satisfied, so I will continue to go.  Normally, I’d get to about this point and think, oh I look fine…and I’d stop there.  I have to say, if I didn’t have Barb, I would have stopped there.  But having her to hold me accountable and to push me in the gym, makes me LOVE it and makes me want to strive for better.  Just in case you don’t know me, I’m the one on the right.

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Lastly, I’m working out with Barb tonight and probably Wednesday or Thursday night.  I’m hoping to get Nick to start swimming with me tomorrow, in the mornings, on top of our nightly workouts.  Check back to see if we got that going…seeing as I’m totally not a morning person!

How Do I Stay on My Schedule with Guests at My House?

 

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Just a small update from me this time….

This past weekend, I got the miserable soar throat, aching ears and congestion. I still got up Saturday morning though and did an unexpected workout with Barb. Thank goodness I had that appointment with her (which is not normal) because otherwise, I wouldn’t have gone to workout. I felt miserable! The rest of the weekend, I slept ALOT. And…I will admit, I ate some comfort food. Not proud of that but I got right back on my schedule on Monday.

By Monday morning, I woke up feeling better…just in time for work. I did rest Monday evening though (am going to have to make up for that somewhere this week). Last night I got a great workout in with Barb. I love when I work out with her because I always leave feeling like it was a really good workout. Much better than the boring treadmill!

Hopefully I will find time to go workout this evening…might be a bike ride with the hubby again. If so, we’ll shoot for 8-10 miles. We’ll see. My inlaws are about to head in to Houston from Arkansas. Please say a prayer for their safe travels, as well as Nick’s uncle who is unfortunately in ICU. He had to have emergency open heart surgery. This is my father in law’s oldest and only living brother, so I know it’s hard on him to see his brother go through this. So, with them in town and with the hospital visits, I keep thinking…how am I going to find time to go to the gym the rest of this week? Maybe I should do my workouts in the morning, before work? hahaha I’m so not a morning person, but may have to shoot for that for this week. Any suggestions from someone who has a regular schedule of working out and how to keep that going with guests at your home?

The Old Me vs. The New Me

This past weekend was a little rough for me!  Fridays I rarely work out (my off day, along with Sunday) so I didn’t last Friday, with intentions of waking up Saturday AM and working out hard.  Friday night I got a call from family who needed to talk (late).  That phone call made me uneasy.  I woke up Saturday AM, with really having forgotten about it though and decided that Lola (my running buddy/dog) and I would get out and go for a good walk and run again. 

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I normally don’t take my phone because I’m in the neighborhood where its busy with other athletic people out and about too, plus the sun was up. I just don’t like carrying a phone while I’m trying to get my exercise on.  I just so happened to ACCIDENTALLY bring it this time, go figure!  Well, about 5 minutes into the walk, I got another phone call from one of the family members.  He needed to talk, needed to vent.  And, of course, I’m going to listen and try and help.  By the time we got off the phone, I had decided to make my way back home (maybe got a 15 min walk, no running involved). I had let his emotions become my emotions.  I was sad, angry, crying and was just trying to bottle it all up inside of me, like I always do.  I didn’t get another work out in the rest of the day, except for cleaning the house (which is a lot of work to me!).  And Sunday I didn’t have time to work out either! 

See, this is the real me, the me I try to hide and not let anyone know about….my emotional side.  Well, alot see my emotions, but you don’t see how I use my emotions to hurt me and not help me.  I allow them to consume me and I basically freeze, I become numb.  I do nothing healthy to get through them.  Wow, this blog is more real than I ever wanted to have to get with you guys….writing it is so hard, as I have a lump in my throat and tears filling up my eyes right now.  This is so not easy!  Would this be easy for you to tell a bunch of strangers and the fact that people who know you now might read?  But I have felt all weekend and week, that I wanted to blog about this to help release it all away.

Monday was a rough day at work (the stress continues) and I was determined to go home and DO NOTHING, not to go the gym, not exercise, nothing…other than veg in front of the tv.  I’m happy to now say, that was the old me who would’ve followed through with that.  But the new me actually got home, rested for about an hour and then got out and did a long brisk walk (probably about 3 miles) with Lola.  It felt so good!  It helped me to breath better and get some of the anxiety out. I did come home, cook a bunch of Tilapia and veggies and had me A (just 1) glass of wine (I rarely indulge in glasses of wine anymore).  I get a kick out of this glass.  It says “Inside of me is a skinny girl trying to get out.” haha  I used this to humor myself and remind me not to have more than 1 glass. haha

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Tuesday I went to the gym and worked out with Barb.  Last night, the hubs and I rode our bikes almost 8 miles and tonight I’ll be working out with Barb again.  I am starting to feel better and am starting to realize I don’t have to be that person anyone who lets her stress, anxiety, pain and anger get the best of her!  I tried to let it get the best of me this weekend, but THANK GOD, I quickly got back up again.  I know it was God though.  He always has my back and always pulls me up by my bra (I don’t normally wear boots) straps and helps me stand back up again (if you didn’t laugh, read the sentence again…it’s ok to laugh!)….this time it happened quicker though.  I’m learning, I’m not perfect, but I am doing better than I use to. 

And I have to end this with saying…to the family who I was talking about who will probably read this…don’t let this discourage you from coming to me!  I WANT you to come to me!  I just need to learn how to better process it, so it’s not your fault….it’s mine.  I love y’all with all my heart and want nothing more than to be there for yall..like you have for me so many times before.