Is My Smile Too Big?

I’m not sure I can smile anymore right now!  Well, I’m sure I could at other awesome news, but right now, I am so stinking excited and happy!  Today, I am wearing a skirt that I haven’t worn since before Nick and I STARTED DATING….that was 6 years ago.  Sure, alot of people I know can still wear the same clothes today that they did 6 years ago, but for me…it’s an accomplishment from the downhill I started to go down 6 years ago. 

I was looking for something to wear and this was always a skirt I kept because I use to love it (it’s not so much in style anymore haha) and had a goal to be able to wear it again someday.  So I put it on this morning without even believing I could actually button it.  TO MY SURPRISE…IT FIT!  And my stomach isn’t even hanging over! haha  So, needless to say, not sure I can smile even bigger right now.

Image

Image

One thing I can say…and don’t get me wrong, I’m celebrating how far I’ve come, but I can’t wait to get in the single digits again and to GIVE THIS SKIRT AWAY!

We will finally fulfill Barb’s homework assignment this Friday, that she gave to us a few weeks ago.  I bought a new cute summer dress this past weekend and we are going to a small country bar in Cypress…to go dancing!  Our goal is to stay at least an hour.  There’s live music so I know we’ll enjoy that but of course, we don’t know anyone in Cypress really, to go with us, so we’ll be going to the bar by ourselves.  Not a whole lot of fun! haha  But we’re going to make the best of it and have some fun, just us 2.  Pray for Nick that I don’t try to LEAD HIM on the dance floor!  Pics will follow later.

And this Saturday is Nick’s 20th weightloss celebration!  We’re celebrating with friends and family at Moody Garden’s Palm Beach.  Even rented a cabana.  Looking forward to it!  Pics to come from that, as well!

Frumpy McGee Today!

Today…I feel FRUMPY!  The outfit that I’m wearing today is too big.  I should be rejoicing right?!  However, I’m in a grumpy mood (just ask the poor innocent victim…my husband) and feel like I don’t deserve new clothes yet so I refuse to go buy anything.  And when I do put some clothes on that are tighter feeling, I think they look bad and I’m not at the fit point to where I can wear them yet.  Hence…the undeserving of new clothes.  My trainer, Barb, gave us homework last week.  First off, I’ve NEVER been good at doing my homework (granted, in my old age, I want to do better).  The homework was to get ourselves a new outfit and go out dancing.  We still haven’t done it.  Nick has plenty of smaller clothes that he hasn’t worn since we got married so he’s already having a ball pulling out the old stuff.  By the way…I have to add…he is looking SO good.  I’m really seeing the slim down in him.  Anyways, but I don’t have many old clothes I can resort to for the time being.  So I am just wearing my larger clothes until they literally fall off…which they haven’t done so yet.  I do want to go dancing but I’m dreading finding something new to wear.  Any ideas?  I know I can go to Target or Old Navy and find plenty of cute inexpensive clothes there..but I’m just dreading going shopping for anything new right now.

And is it possible to lose weight in your feet?  I swear my shoes are becoming flip flops now, like my heels and wedges I wear for work.  I almost tripped the other day because one flip flopped so much on me.  I think it’s time for new shoes too!  My husband probably won’t believe me, so that’s why I’m coming to the blog world to make sure it’s not just in my head and to have someone else agree so HE’LL agree to get me some new shoes 🙂 hehe

Another “new” thing we added to our cardio is the Stair Master.  It use to be like a mountain I thought I may not climb for a while but Barb put me on it about a week ago, for 5 minutes and I was pretty tired. haha  So this week, Nick did it for 20…no, 21 (HAVE to add that 1 in there) minutes.  And I did it for 10 and then went and ran.  The Stair Master has become a new desire in our family! haha 

Oh and we’re also really loving abs right now.  I feel like the more abs I do, the flatter my stomach will get and the less flabby I’ll be when I lose all the weight.

I told someone yesterday that I lost 20 lbs and may have 40 more to go.  Keep in mind, I’m still not sure what my goal weight will be because I don’t know what I’ll look like at say 130.  I may get above that and think I look great and I don’t need to keep losing.  Who knows.  But she was surprised I said I still have that much to probably lose.  Kind of made me feel good that not everyone sees me as this big fat slob.

I’m not sure if I added…but Nick is working out with me and Barb now as well.  And I love it!  It gives us more time to be together and keeps BOTH of us working out.  Doing this new lifestyle TOGETHER means the world to me.  I know I’m lucky because I know there are plenty of couples out there that don’t have the support system of their spouse/significant other.  And if that’s you…keep reminding yourself to TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF and he/she may/will follow later.  But just worry about yourself and I promise, all else will fall into place.  I had to learn that with marriage 🙂

One last report to you guys…I have started to get a little more comfortable with wearing sleeveless shirts lately.  Check out this pic at my friend’s shower this past Sunday.  No my arms aren’t RIPPED YET but I’m starting to feel more comfortable.

Image

Look in the Mirror and say “You’re Beautiful”

This past Saturday was supposed to be my celebration for my 20 lb weight loss, however I was 8 oz, yes OUNCES, away from hitting that goal.  BUT…I celebrated anyway 🙂  I already made the plans and figured I still deserved to celebrate my weight loss, period.  And we had a blast doing it!  Got a little sunburnt, but overall, had such a great time. 

We headed up to Lake Livingston where my aunt and her boyfriend have a condo RIGHT ON THE LAKE. haha  I get excited about it, because nothing excites me more than being ON the water!  I LOVE the water…lake, pool, river, ocean, waterpark…whatever and however I can get the water…I LOVE IT.  I chose to celebrate on the water…and jet skis…because it was a much healthier option than awarding myself with food, right.  Even though…we definitely blew our diets that day. haha  We didn’t drink not one lick of alcohol though…so that helped, right!?! 🙂  I was such in a great mood headed up there, that I had to stand outside of my husband’s sunroof…he wasn’t too happy about it.  But just something about me felt like I was free!

Here’s Nick inside the car…I’m above it…well, half my body:

Nick in car

The open road, via the sun roof….now doesn’t this just scream to hang out of the sunroof?!

sunroof

And here’s my shot of the wind through my hair.  Not a model’s picture by any means, but it cracks me up so I had to share:

Me out of Sunroof

I wanted to get a picture of me on the jet ski for you guys, but there were alot of other people there so I didn’t want to be super cheesy in front of strangers. haha  After playing in the water all day, we sat out on the pier, where their spot perfectly sits for the sunset.  Here’s Nick and I enjoying the sunset:

Nick and I Sunset Livingston 7-6-13

And me…after a long day on the lake.  Disclaimer – I look at these pictures and I don’t see “pretty”.  I know Nick and my mom are going to kill me for saying this but I’m putting it out there because I’m trying to remind everyone that we’re not perfect…some days are better than others.  I know that I’ve already started the most important thing for my transformation, but my mind still has some catching up to do.  I do pray that one day I look at myself in the mirror and say, WOW BRITT…YOU GO GIRL! haha

Me Livingston 7-6-13

I watched another episode of Extreme Weightloss.  Do you watch it?  WOW!  EVERY SINGLE episode gets me.  This week’s episode really got me though.  This girl grew up feeling unloved by her adopted mother, so instead of taking it out on the mom, she took it out on her ownself.  And the heavier she got, the uglier she felt and truly believed she was.  She kept saying she was worthless and why does she deserve the help.  That hit home for me because I often feel like that.  When I get down about how far I’ve let my body go, I think the same things…I’m disgusting, I’m worthless, I’m ugly, nobody wants to be my friend, friends and family are ashamed of me, etc.  Unfortunately, those thoughts are VERY real.  I wanted to reach through the TV and give her the biggest hug because she should have NEVER taken on that guilt of her unnurturing adopted mother.  She didn’t deserve the “abuse”.  And she didn’t deserve to take it out on her body and let herself go.  She IS worth it!  She does deserve to smile!  That just reminded me that…I need to keep telling MY OWN SELF that!  It’s always been a struggle for me to give myself positive affirmations.  My mom use to make me look in the mirror and tell myself I’m beautiful.  I HATED IT…felt like it was more of a punishment.  I truly did not believe I was beautiful.  My mom wasn’t and still isn’t perfect, but I look back at that and think…she was truly trying to mold the way I think about myself.  And for that…Thank you Mom.  I pray I learn from you and love my future daughter so much that she believes she’s beautiful and that I teach her how to love herself.  I do have to joke for a second though…my brother…he got ALL of the confidence. haha He LOVES taking pictures of himself and talking about his body. haha  I will admit..he IS gorgeous!  So Trey…give me some of that back, I need that confidence!

After all of this though…I can officially say I’m a 20 POUNDER!  Meaning…I have officially LOST 20 lbs.  I got on the scale this morning and man…it felt so good to see 172!  NOT, 192…inching to 200.  I admitted to Barb the other night though, that it’s hard for me to imagine myself another 20 lbs gone in the future because in the past, I’ve lost weight till about this point and then felt better…so I stopped eating better and exercising…only to find myself back in the 190’s, pushing 200 again.  But I told her that on purpose…so that she can continue to hold me accountable so that I won’t give up.  I’m not ready to give up though!  I’m looking forward to the day I can put a 2 piece bikini on and feel good about it.  Hey you skinny girls…do you ever feel GOOD in your bikini?  Proud of your body/hard work , if it takes any?  If not…I pray that I can alter my thinking before I get there, so that I can truly be proud of myself and love myself enough to say “You’re Beautiful.”

Weight Gain Does Not Have to Equal Shame

I feel like it’s been too long since I last blogged.  I might not eve have that many readers to begin with but when I blog, I feel like the whole world is reading. haha  Normally, an unpaid blogger, has all the excitement at first about blogging…sharing all the news with the world, feeling like they have this huge audience, but as time goes by, the excitement wears off and nobody is asking “are you still blogging?”, so you slowly go off the blogging world.  Well, I told myself that even if I’m writing this for me to read to myself, I’ll keep doing it.  I really do enjoy blogging about my journey to get fit.  But this week and last were hard to blog….about what has happened!

Here goes!

I first had to admit it to Barb and then I had to decompress.  I GAINED 2 lbs.  When I got on the scale and realized that, I was so upset.  I was mad, sad, disappointed, etc.  I couldn’t believe I had done that.  I felt like I had worked so hard and was only 2 lbs away from my 1st goal of 20 lbs lost.  However, the truth is, I had gotten a little relaxed on the weekends, not going crazy but I had been having a few Michelob Ultras here and there (it was 108 degrees here last Saturday…I needed to quinch my thirst lol) and I had been eating Chicken Fajitas with flour tortillas and tortilla chips and salsa at Gringo’s a handful of times (not in 1 day, over probably about a month).  So either it caught up to me, or I had alot of water weight.  Last Tuesday, Nick and I were given the opportunity to work a merchandise table for a favorite artist of mine, Bonnie Bishop.  It was totally spontaneous of us and as soon as I got home from work that day, I had to literally turn back around and head to the concert.  By the time we got there, we were A. Starving and B. My blood sugar had dropped BIG TIME.  I’m learning that if you’re eating every 2-3 hours (small, of course), that doesn’t leave room for your blood sugar to drop.  And when mine does drop…I want carbs and anything that’ll fill me up good.  Needless to say, I ate something fried.  I had not done that since I started this new lifestyle change…anything fried that is.  I’m not going to lie, it was so freaking good.  But it really showed on the scale the next day!  It took me a few days to tell Barb.  I was scared what she was going to say.  I was scared to disappoint her.  But I finally contacted her on Thursday and gave her the bad news.  But much to my surprise…she totally reversed my attitude and helped me to stop beating myself up.  So since last Thursday, I have been staying true to my workout regimin and am watching what I’m eating, even on the weekend.

This coming Saturday marks the goal date I had to have lost 20 lbs and to celebrate it on jet skis at my aunt’s lakehouse.  At this point, I’m not putting so much of an importance on the number and am waiting until Saturday morning to get on the scale.  If I hadn’t made the 20 lbs, I’m not going to lie, I will be a little disappointed because I have all these plans in place to celebrate THAT DAY.  However, no matter what, I’m still going to go celebrate…plans are made and I need to realize I’ve come a good ways so far.  I haven’t give up and I deserve a little excitement.

We’re having a few people over for tomorrow, 4th of July, and we bought turkey meat for those of us who want to have turkey burgers 🙂  We also have watermelon to snack on as well.  I’m sure we’ll eat a cookie or a few of the other snacks that others bring, but we’re not going to go crazy and will count that as our cheat meal.  What are your plans to stay healthy tomorrow? 

Happy Independence everyone!  Count your blessings.

 Image

Too Giddy to NOT Give an Update

Image

I just couldn’t help myself and wait for a blog post for next week.  I got on the scale this morning and….I’m down 2 more lbs!  WOOHOOO  ONLY 2 MORE TO GO….And then I’ll be zooming over the water on jet skis in Lake Livingston with my family to celebrate (see my last blog post for goal).  CAN NOT WAIT!  I think I’ll surpass my goal by then though. haha  Even better!

This week, I worked out twice a day for 3 days.  And worked out Mon-Thursday, taking tonight off and working out early in the morning (plus a bonus of going with my hubs, best friend and her hubs to shoot a few golf balls at a really cool driving range here called Top Golf in the morn) and then will take Sunday off as well.  It felt a little weird waking up this morning and not rushing out the door at dark to head to the gym to swim. haha  But I’ll be right back at that Monday AM.  I’m really enjoying it!

And I started pushing myself to run a full mile without stopping this week, twice.  There’s a half marathon relay here in October or November (I forget) that I would love to be able to run with a friend.  She’d do the 6 miles and I’d do the 6 miles and we both still get the medal.  Sounds pretty awesome to me. haha  So my goal is to run the whole 6 miles.  My best friend who is an avid runner (you can read her blog at http://www.thefastfitrunner.com/ ) , even at 9 months pregnant… is still running milessssss, gave me a really good goal, to up my distance by 0.3 each week and I should be at the 6 miles by the race.  That sounds much more do-able. haha

I couldn’t help myself with this picture….can someone please make this for me! hahaha

Image

Well, I hope everyone has a great weekend.  See y’all back here next week sometime.

Celebrating Every “Little” Step

ImageWell…I did it!  2 days in a row too!  I got up yesterday and this morning and went and swam 500 meters.  May not be alot to some, but it’s alot to me, since I haven’t freestyle swam in a year and a half.  My goal is to start swimming every morning, Mon-Thurs, and still do my normal workouts in the evening (5 days a week).  Last night I had a hard time sleeping though.  I got home about 9 pm, ate dinner and the Heat/Spurs Finals game #6 was on.  Some of you know that I’m a newly upcoming fan of basketball.  I love Miami Heat.  GO HEAT!  I think they have alot of great players.  I love my very own home team too though, Houston Rockets.  We may have the lowest paid team in the league, but I still think we have great guys…some with alot of heart and passion in the game.  Anyways, my sleep kept getting disrupted because the game was on and I knew and wanted to watch it. haha  I finally feel asleep close to 11:45 p.m. (and I had laid down at 10).  Hoping to figure out my nightly routine a little bit better so that I can go to bed earlier.  I love a good 8 hour sleep.

Here I am in my very first Speedo.  Yes, I added the skirt…I’m not that comfortable with my body yet.  I of course look at this picture and criticize it, but I hope to put a similar one up to it one day and see the difference.  This picture was taken a few weeks ago.  I am already thinking of how I can sell it when I drop some more lbs 🙂

 Image

And last night, I felt the need to get on a treadmill and see how long I could run.  I have never gotten the running thing done…not even when I did my 2 Half Marathons and the 2 triathlons.  But last night, I ran A WHOLE MILE without stopping.  Woohoo, GO ME!  I just feel that as I’m losing the pounds, that it’s getting easier on my body to run.  In the past, it felt like dead weight trying to run.  However, I do need to get out on the road and try and run a whole mile because that’ll be more of a challenge.  But I ran my whole mile in less than 15 minutes (haha, I felt like I was going way faster than a 15 min mile) and then I walked briskly with an incline for the other 30 minutes.  Nick asked how my workout was, and I said “GREAT!”. haha  I don’t think I’ve ever said that to a workout before.  I really did enjoy it and look forward to getting back to my efforts of running.  I’m really wanting to do a relay for a half marathon in October or November, so that would be about 6 miles.  I’d LOVE to be able to run the whole thing.  We’ll see 🙂

Does anyone have any good ideas for what to do with your wet stuff (swim suit and towel) after you swim in the morning and need to head straight to work?  Our gym doesn’t have a spinner to dry them 😦  So I need a good idea.  This morning, I put my wet towel on the back seat (leather) and hung the swim suit up so that it was dangling over the towel.  But I really don’t even want the wet towel on my seat.  Hopefully I’ll figure it out soon.

I have to say this….I can see how some athletic people who are very good at what they do and very strong headed can get totally annoyed with my blogs.  They probably see my “little” accomplishments and think I don’t deserve credit yet, but I want you all to know that I continue to praise myself for the “little” steps I’m taking to get fit.  Each time I make it to the gym, each time I go for a walk, a bike ride, a swim, etc….I’m making a step and each of those steps are mentally challenging for me. Mentally, it is getting easier and I will celebrate that too, because one of my biggest critics is my mind.  So I just had to tell y’all that, in case anyone thinks I shouldn’t be celebrating each “little” step.  I totally disagree..I should celebrate 🙂  And speaking of celebrating…my aunt thought it was a great idea to have me over to ride jet skis when I have gotten to the 20 mark.  I gave myself a goal of losing 4 more lbs by Saturday July 6.  I can totally do it.  Wish me luck!

Craving Cupcakes? NO…EXERCISE!

I don’t think I’ve ever CRAVED exercise before as much as I am this morning.  This past week was hard.  On top of having Nick’s family in for his uncle’s death (yes, unfortunately he passed away Thursday), I also had work stress.  I worked an extra 3 1/2 hours last week.  Am I the only one who’s not use to that?  Even if I work an extra 30 minutes, I feel it.  It’s just not worth it to me.  My time OUT of the office is much more valuable to me.

So, needless to say, I bombed last week with all the stresses of work and having guests in town and events happen that we just couldn’t help.  I only worked out twice!  I’m not totally beating myself up about it, but I am wishing I had more time last week.  However, because of the circumstances, I know that there was nothing I could do about it and am just ready to get back on the horse this week.

Haha, I couldn’t resist this.  I was looking for something good to go with this post and I came across this.  Yes…while this is so true and making excuses to exercise is not a part of my life anymore (Never thought I’d say that), when there is no energy to exercise because you just worked 10-12 hour days and you have family in that need you because of a death in the family…this had to be put on the back burner.  HOWEVER, I am SO HAPPY to say I don’t make excuses on an everyday basis anymore.  WOW…I seriously never thought I’d get to this point.

Image

On another note, I’ve been curious to hear everytime I see someone that I haven’t seen in a while, if they noticed any weight loss on me yet.  I haven’t lost so much that I’m unrecognizable yet, but I am so happy to say that I am ONLY FOUR POUNDS AWAY FROM 20 lbs LOST.  Woohoo.  I am so close. When I get to 20…I am going to celebrate!  Don’t know how because I use to celebrate with margaritas and now that those are the enemy drink of me, I’m not sure how I’ll celebrate.  Maybe I’ll talk my Aunt and her boyfriend into letting me come ride their jet skis. haha  I’ll figure something out.  Maybe I’ll plan a day at the beach.  Much more healthy than drinking, right?! haha  So I’ve gotten some compliments in person, but not everyone comments.  However, we went out with some friends Saturday night and I think I just took a really good picture because man oh man, I got lots of comments on my FB about how great I look.  My mom even called me sexy. haha  I haven’t felt “sexy” in a while, but I am starting to want to sing JT’s song again..”I’m bringing sexy back, what…” hahaah  Startin to feel pretty again.  It is nice, but I’m not totally at a point where I’m satisfied, so I will continue to go.  Normally, I’d get to about this point and think, oh I look fine…and I’d stop there.  I have to say, if I didn’t have Barb, I would have stopped there.  But having her to hold me accountable and to push me in the gym, makes me LOVE it and makes me want to strive for better.  Just in case you don’t know me, I’m the one on the right.

Image

Lastly, I’m working out with Barb tonight and probably Wednesday or Thursday night.  I’m hoping to get Nick to start swimming with me tomorrow, in the mornings, on top of our nightly workouts.  Check back to see if we got that going…seeing as I’m totally not a morning person!

How Do I Stay on My Schedule with Guests at My House?

 

WelcomeMat

Just a small update from me this time….

This past weekend, I got the miserable soar throat, aching ears and congestion. I still got up Saturday morning though and did an unexpected workout with Barb. Thank goodness I had that appointment with her (which is not normal) because otherwise, I wouldn’t have gone to workout. I felt miserable! The rest of the weekend, I slept ALOT. And…I will admit, I ate some comfort food. Not proud of that but I got right back on my schedule on Monday.

By Monday morning, I woke up feeling better…just in time for work. I did rest Monday evening though (am going to have to make up for that somewhere this week). Last night I got a great workout in with Barb. I love when I work out with her because I always leave feeling like it was a really good workout. Much better than the boring treadmill!

Hopefully I will find time to go workout this evening…might be a bike ride with the hubby again. If so, we’ll shoot for 8-10 miles. We’ll see. My inlaws are about to head in to Houston from Arkansas. Please say a prayer for their safe travels, as well as Nick’s uncle who is unfortunately in ICU. He had to have emergency open heart surgery. This is my father in law’s oldest and only living brother, so I know it’s hard on him to see his brother go through this. So, with them in town and with the hospital visits, I keep thinking…how am I going to find time to go to the gym the rest of this week? Maybe I should do my workouts in the morning, before work? hahaha I’m so not a morning person, but may have to shoot for that for this week. Any suggestions from someone who has a regular schedule of working out and how to keep that going with guests at your home?

The Old Me vs. The New Me

This past weekend was a little rough for me!  Fridays I rarely work out (my off day, along with Sunday) so I didn’t last Friday, with intentions of waking up Saturday AM and working out hard.  Friday night I got a call from family who needed to talk (late).  That phone call made me uneasy.  I woke up Saturday AM, with really having forgotten about it though and decided that Lola (my running buddy/dog) and I would get out and go for a good walk and run again. 

Image

I normally don’t take my phone because I’m in the neighborhood where its busy with other athletic people out and about too, plus the sun was up. I just don’t like carrying a phone while I’m trying to get my exercise on.  I just so happened to ACCIDENTALLY bring it this time, go figure!  Well, about 5 minutes into the walk, I got another phone call from one of the family members.  He needed to talk, needed to vent.  And, of course, I’m going to listen and try and help.  By the time we got off the phone, I had decided to make my way back home (maybe got a 15 min walk, no running involved). I had let his emotions become my emotions.  I was sad, angry, crying and was just trying to bottle it all up inside of me, like I always do.  I didn’t get another work out in the rest of the day, except for cleaning the house (which is a lot of work to me!).  And Sunday I didn’t have time to work out either! 

See, this is the real me, the me I try to hide and not let anyone know about….my emotional side.  Well, alot see my emotions, but you don’t see how I use my emotions to hurt me and not help me.  I allow them to consume me and I basically freeze, I become numb.  I do nothing healthy to get through them.  Wow, this blog is more real than I ever wanted to have to get with you guys….writing it is so hard, as I have a lump in my throat and tears filling up my eyes right now.  This is so not easy!  Would this be easy for you to tell a bunch of strangers and the fact that people who know you now might read?  But I have felt all weekend and week, that I wanted to blog about this to help release it all away.

Monday was a rough day at work (the stress continues) and I was determined to go home and DO NOTHING, not to go the gym, not exercise, nothing…other than veg in front of the tv.  I’m happy to now say, that was the old me who would’ve followed through with that.  But the new me actually got home, rested for about an hour and then got out and did a long brisk walk (probably about 3 miles) with Lola.  It felt so good!  It helped me to breath better and get some of the anxiety out. I did come home, cook a bunch of Tilapia and veggies and had me A (just 1) glass of wine (I rarely indulge in glasses of wine anymore).  I get a kick out of this glass.  It says “Inside of me is a skinny girl trying to get out.” haha  I used this to humor myself and remind me not to have more than 1 glass. haha

Image

Tuesday I went to the gym and worked out with Barb.  Last night, the hubs and I rode our bikes almost 8 miles and tonight I’ll be working out with Barb again.  I am starting to feel better and am starting to realize I don’t have to be that person anyone who lets her stress, anxiety, pain and anger get the best of her!  I tried to let it get the best of me this weekend, but THANK GOD, I quickly got back up again.  I know it was God though.  He always has my back and always pulls me up by my bra (I don’t normally wear boots) straps and helps me stand back up again (if you didn’t laugh, read the sentence again…it’s ok to laugh!)….this time it happened quicker though.  I’m learning, I’m not perfect, but I am doing better than I use to. 

And I have to end this with saying…to the family who I was talking about who will probably read this…don’t let this discourage you from coming to me!  I WANT you to come to me!  I just need to learn how to better process it, so it’s not your fault….it’s mine.  I love y’all with all my heart and want nothing more than to be there for yall..like you have for me so many times before.

Short & Sweet or Long & Long-Winded?

This is going to be a short and sweet post…I just have to get 3 things off of my mind!

1. I went jogging/walking last night, instead of the gym.  Took my favorite gal, Lola (my 3 year old Basset Hound/Beagle pup) with me.  She LOVES walks and runs.  She’ll pull me almost the whole time…which is what I need.  Should sign her up for sled dog races. haha  Anyways, I jogged more than I normally do.  I have previously trained for and participated (not competed because I’m very slow) in 2 Half Marathons.  While they were an amazing experience, they were so hard on my body.  It hurt!  I just never got use to it.  In all honesty, I probably didn’t train enough throughout the week for it.  I hated it…but was driven by the charity I was raising money for, The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society.  I had walked pretty much the whole time on both of those races.  Last night lit a spark in me though.  I’m not going to jump up and immediately sign up, but a goal of mine would be to finish a half marathon with running most or all of it.  And if you would have asked me about even participating in one a month ago, I would have simply told ya NO.  I had no plans for doing another one.  So…we’ll see….may look for one to do early next year 🙂

Image

This is Lola, with her brothers (Kojak-Basset Hound and Astro-Chiweenie) and their daddy (my honey).  Nick will probably kill me for posting this photo but it’s all I have right now of the pups together!

2.  Do you know Bethenny Frankel?  I’m sure she drives most people crazy.  She acts a little crazy herself, but I love her!  I actually admire her alot…business wise…not relationship/love/romance side though.  Anyways, I came across this video this morning. http://www.bethenny.com/2013/05/29/how-to-beat-bikini-body-anxiety/?adid=home-feature-slot-1 I have ALWAYS, ALL of my life, hated bathing suits.  Even when I was younger and had a much leaner body…I never felt amazing and HOT in them.  But after watching this video, it makes me want to go find a bathing suit to rock what I got right now. haha  And accessorize it too!  Don’t get excited though…I doubt you’ll be seeing any bathing suit pics of me this summer 🙂

3.  After my last post, I decided to brave the storm and got on the scale yesterday morning…and guess what…I have actually lost another lb.  Whew!  BUT…that doesn’t mean I’m going to do that again (eat bad, drink lots of booze and not exercise) on my next vaca.  I learned from my lesson and already warned the husband! haha

Hope you all have a good rest of the week and a fabulous weekend!  I will…because I’m hosting my best friend’s baby shower on Sunday!  It’s her 1st baby and I couldn’t be more honored to be apart of this experience with her.  Her and I were next door neighbors since I was 4, her 5.  She is one of the many friends I look up to for their fitness and health.  Here we are probably 7/8 years old and then and now, where she is 7 1/2 months pregnant.  Can you believe it?! She looks fantastic!

Image

That didn’t turn out so short and sweet, did it?!  Sorry 🙂